setback

yesterday was a confusing, perplexing day...

summoned to a.l's office.. he proceeded to cut me down to size


so confused - i thought a.l was my friend.... the conversation (if i can call it that, more like a dressing down) messed up my entire evening - couldnt concentrate during the seminar, couldnt concentrate during perry stone or grant jeffrey today....

george called about midnite.... told me not to worry about my job... hope he's right............

now in the office working.. or trying to.......

a few hours later: i think i finally found out what really bugged me.... he finally used the q word, after a whole 3 years... that writes him off i guess, puts him in the same category as CN and all the rest... i shoulda known meeting him in person would spoil eeeevrything.. now i hav to look for another epal.... or just chill and enjoy the solitude...

being single's nice... if only i had more cash though - the lack sucks BIGTIME

discovered this week that i'm ADDICTED to dstv - had it off for less than a week and i got severely depressed... missed survivor and... so you think you can dance... boo hoo :'(

and then - the ultimate depressant - someone from the past reappeared ...

i need a friend... too used to being part of a couple... need someone to snuggle up to, to share stuff, go out, etc.... my pals are fun, but it's not enough..

wonder if d would ever reconsider............