broke up friendship with cm at 11:27 p.m. on 27th June, i.e. a few minutes ago... email. i dont expect him to reply... in fact i think he will be relieved... this time i will follow thru... it'll be easy enough, as there will be no effort on his part.

i hope i meet my mate soon... my life has become one dreary day after another... i love sleep and have nothing to look forward to at this point...

i hate my living conditions... no one should have to suffer like this... it's been 7 months and still nothing...

i have learnt that i have no real, deep friends... those that know the exact nature of my living conditions don't care enough to do anything about them (cm, ao, lo) and those that don't know the details don't care enough to find out (xians in general)

i try to be positive, but in moments like this i wonder if something good will ever come of my life...

i dont think i deserved what happened with collins... i pray that one day God will make up for the heartache and embarrassment that he caused... and all the wasted years...